Oracle

Now I think I know who you are, did you ever know who I am
It's apparent now, hidden deep within
The more I discover the less you care to know
Until you feel the need, to take control
An intellectual equal, with a gentle kindly touch
A look of understanding, a laughter too serious
A composition, of melodious design
Is all I have, to describe
What you are, who you were
To no one, with such a vehement yearning
To bring you outward, once more face to face
To confirm my suspicions, of who you were then
Is it who you are now, for such a long time
Was I too blind, to see what you represented
The personification, the materialization
Of the the other half of me
Looking straight into my eyes, real and physical
Allowing my expressions, to take flight
So long as it was, under your will
Was that the draw to you then
Is that the call to you now
Would it be the same, if I faced you down again
Or will time, disappoint my heart
And show me, like a painting
Imprinted on my mind and in the deepest recesses
Of my soul that I cling to an image
Are you still that image
Same sinister handsome creature
With the slow graceful unrest
Deliberate features, distinguished and fascinating
Taunting me with desires, to step into that figure
If for only one day, in your world of reality
I still hold you close, in my reverie
In the quiet tranquil peace you give me
Until you take it away, from me again
And cut the touch, turn off the channel
And step into my awkward shell
Your comforting form filling me with sure
And steady confidence, even if I feel false
I let go, I let you take control
Sometimes I want it all the time
Sometimes I need you again
But I don't want to want you anymore
Just to change the places
Sometimes I wish you would take it all
Or leave, erased from my memory
One or the other
I haven't the strength nor the desire
To make that choice
Then or now
If ever.